I spent this last weekend on a mini-retreat with God. I have been working in my new position in ministry for several months now and it has been the most rewarding, powerful, grace-filled, exciting experience I’ve had. I don’t think I’ve talked to as many people collectively in my whole life as I have in the last month. So, this weekend was me reading Scripture, listening for that still small voice, journaling, writing, being in God’s presence, believing God’s promises, remembering where God brought me from, and learning some new things about his purpose for my life. In other words, God was filling me. Some big things came out of this retreat. Here are some things I’m doing this week as a result:
I’m memorizing Hebrews 12:1-2a: I need Scripture in my mind, in my heart, and in my mouth. So, I’m memorizing these verses: “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.”
I’m journaling and praying that I will have clarity about what my race is. God has marked out my purpose. He has known it since before I was created. In my purpose, I will be my most authentic self, the one God has always seen in me despite the ways I have strayed and settled for less.
I’m seeking God’s help in identifying every thing that hinders me. I want to persevere in the race God has marked out for me. And so, I need to identify what is holding me back, what is weighing me down. I’m talking about the stuff that is not sinful, but it is holding me back. Once I identify those things, I’m praying for strength and courage to throw them and any sin off! Then, one by one, I’m doing it.
I’m reminding my daughter (and myself) that God loves her no matter what. One of the very clear promptings from God that came out of this weekend was his desire that I tell my daughter every day that as she grows up she may do things that will lead her to feel disappointed with herself, but she needs to know that nothing she does…nothing…will change the way he sees her or loves her.
I’m saying, “I love you too” to God. I learned something in a new way this weekend from the amazing Beth Moore. I want to love God with all my heart, strength, soul, and mind. Every day, I want to love him more. But I can only love him because he loved me first. (1 John 4:19) He is the initiator. So, every instance I think to tell him “I love you, God,” instead, I’m going to say, “I love you too.”
What are you doing this week to stay close to God?
Is there a passage of Scripture you could memorize so that it’s in you?
Is there someone in your life that needs to be reminded or told that nothing they have done or will do changes or will change the way God sees and loves them?