Last week of May, 2013. My daughter turns 13 years old next month and lately I’ve been going through old pictures and memories, wondering how that could possibly be. Mostly I am amazed by the passage of time and all that has happened in 13 years both in her and in me. We are in a period of time in which my skills as a mom are being tested. I’ve kind of been on a bit of a roll over the last few years. Now, though, I’m starting to feel like I don’t really know what I’m doing at all. There are questions I don’t know how to answer, problems I cannot solve, and feelings I can’t make come or go. She is going on two long trips without me this summer and I’ve been scheming of ways to keep her home, knowing what’s best for her is to let her go. Anyway, here’s what I’m doing this week to stay focused on what matters:
I’m praying for my sweet, nearly 13-year old girl. Of course, I pray for her every day, but this week I’m thanking God for her spirit and giving heart, and asking God for wisdom so I know when to say words and when to wrap my arms around her and just say “I don’t know.”
I’m telling ten people thank you. In the last 13 years, there are so many people who have encouraged me, helped me, prayed for me, and been present with me. I’m telling at least ten of them how grateful I am.
I’m thanking God for saving me. Thirteen years ago I didn’t know about amazing grace. I didn’t know I was loved by the one who made all things. I didn’t know I was worth dying for. I didn’t know. Now I know and I’m thanking God for revealing himself to me and pulling me and my daughter into his light.
I’m reading this Scripture. “I am the true grapevine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch of mine that doesn’t produce fruit, and he prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more. You have already been pruned and purified by the message I have given you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you…I have loved you even as the Father has loved me. Remain in my love. When you obey my commandments, you remain in my love, just as I obey my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes, your joy will overflow! This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you.” (John 15:1-4; 9-12)
I’m loaning $25 to a woman in Kenya. Her name is Rose and she raises cattle to feed her family, but cattle feed has gotten to be so expensive, she needs some equipment to make it herself. www.kiva.org
What do you have planned for this week? What are you doing to keep yourself focused on what matters most?