Yesterday, I experienced the presence of God maybe like never before both in my own soul and in the world. Have you had a day like that? Almost too amazing to bear. Every moment feels full and alive, bursting beyond what it was meant to hold. My body was exhausted when I got home but my mind was racing with stories and faces and my heart was exploding with fall-on-your-knees, sing-at-the-top-of-your-lungs gratefulness. And then today came. Today feels emptied and gloomy, quieter, with dark clouds rolling by silently. I am tired now, both body and mind and somehow yesterday seems impossible. The birds that were active outside my window late into the night have slept in. The leaves are still and nothing moves.
I am sure that if today were like yesterday, I would burst and so a day that is slower and in which I can hear each tick of the clock should be welcome. But the little kid in me is crying out, “Again! Again!” Somehow, though, the whisper of the one caring for my soul today compels me more than the loud cry. “Just rest. For today, just rest.” And so I am.
“Lord, thank you for each moment,
for the twilight moment,
the pause, the good tired,
for the quiet reflection,
the slowing down, the mysterious sunset,
for my contented heart
and the wisdom growing inside me.
to feel whatever comes as a gift
And to praise you in it.”
–Ted Loder, Guerillas of Grace: Prayers for the Battle
Can you hear a whisper to rest?